I want to sleep

I want to sleep 

I want to sleep but never wake

I can’t do that tho, too many would shake

Not to mention, people calling me weak

No, I’m just too egotistical to sleep

Even when my life was low

Even when my chances of recovery looked slim

I still wanted to fight just because others’ life looked more grim 

Am I hero?

What’s so special about me?

I have never given my time for free

Why did I open my eyes

Just to have some people despise

I was comfortable sleeping

Yea, but others were weeping

I want to sleep but never wake

Promise me, you will not shake

My ego must rest

It’s time to say that I’m not the best

Pain follows me where I go

It’s kinda hard to follow the flow

But I still rise

I still look at the skies

The skies of blue and gray

Man I was never one to stay

What is the point of competing 

After all no one can change the past

All our mistakes will forever last

Sorry, this just got negative

My pictures were quite expletive

They make people cry

Others just ask why

Pain, pain go away

Come again another day

I need to be able to handle it

Not just look and throw a fit

I called just to speak to you

I can’t just go away, like a flu

I cannot blame anyone

That makes me feel weak

I don’t think my ego can hold me from my sleep

I fight like hell, 

It ain’t swell

When I want to diss

I make sure I don’t miss

Why do I write?

Is it to be in people’s sight?

Or is to get it back

It’s been a while, I have slacked

My vision is skewed

My actions are rude

I left my old friends

Talking to them was a dead end

You only value memories

As soon as they become histories

What was your name?

Sorry, I may have remembered you, if you had more fame 

I just keep fighting

Writing

Writing about my pain

But who cares?

All they see is a kid who is vain

I want to sleep and never wake

Maybe that is how I can rest

I will stop now, while I’m ahead

Now I am stopping, before I am dead